Neverlight

If there ever was a light inside of this
Still-born face
I would have seen it

A man that had lived his life
As a parasite
In an open grave
That hasn't opened

With his arms outstretched
He said,
"For the rest of my life
I will be in here
For the rest of my life
In here…"

With my arms outstretched
I said,
"For the rest of my life
I will be in here
Until the end of time
In here…"

She Hides Disease

Somewhere inside this broken
Plaything hides disease
And waits
Wrapped in a cold blur
While I
Make-believe she shows me things that
Breathe

You smile when I
Make that
Sound

And turn out the lights when I
Speak aloud

You say that you don't do well in
Crowds

Can't we forget our names
While we're allowed?

Her memory sleeps in a garden inside
A closet filled with
Flies

Feed to me your pills and letters
But I
Only hear you when you speak to me
Through white light

Breed with me under ice

Baby Teeth

A severed something in a secret place
Where there
Is enough room for
Fear

"I would rather watch you up
On a silent stage
With baby teeth still in
Still inside your
Mouth."

We can chew our way through this
Wound in wall

And this goes for all of you
And I do see all of you
Still
In
My life

Permission for Sleep

Invisible life inside of glass walls
Waits for permission to go to
Sleep

From a voice in a package addressed to me
But I choose to
Keep it all
To myself

I know that this is all that you want
From me

I have a piece of a criminal's mind
In my skull

I will see you again when it's colder
And will feel you through your clothes
These lights will never change
Or get old

Just promise that you won't punish me with
Secrets or dead eyes

My head feed this crowd
Just like it did
Last time

If this isn't enough
Why am I here
In all your thoughts

I will wait here in your memory
Like a cancer waits for tears
With this hungry belief
That I was already there

Plain Faced Afternoons

(sang this in a trance… I am not sure what I am saying… but here is the closest that I can get to decoding myself)

Father takes me over to you
And never hides in plain faced afternoons

And in this place
Just always know
That all that I ask from you is time

And I can believe this
And I can't believe this
And I can believe them
And I can't

A silly face the way through
That never hides the same way
In plain faced afternoons

No Movement in Water

No movement in the water
While I have
All of your broken fingers
Under
My Bed

Never ask for a breath you should take
A silent alarm
In deafened space
Will make me them

It can't get much colder
It can't get much colder
Than the teeth of the blind
That touch my face

You'll never know that you are to blame
You are that good
You'll never know when it's all over

Your Name in a Stolen Book

I wrote my name in a stolen book
About the sun

I was an animal
I stood in line

And waited alone
For the long good-bye

I never had to know these things

Maybe I should just give up
Tonight

Maybe you're right
This is who I'm supposed to be

Maybe you're right
This really me